So Long Facebook, Hello Freedom!!!

Yes it's true I am cancelling my facebook page!!!  And I couldn't be happier!  I've been thinking about doing this for some time now and I'm finally going to do it.  "Why in the world would you do that?!", you ask.  Well here it goes...

I spend entirely waaaaay too much time on FB and I know I could use that time in more productive and healthy ways.  I find myself checking my FB whenever I walk by the computer.  I tell myself I am going to check something really quick, and then of course I get sucked into the world of facebook.  It's definitely not the message I want to send my children.  I don't let them watch a lot of TV, so why should I spend a lot of time on the computer?  The funny thing is, I get so irritated when I'm talking to Steve and I can tell he's not actively listening (love you honey!), and then when I'm on FB he'll be talking to me and I just nod my head and act like I am listening.  Not my best moments.  So without facebook tempting me I'll be a better mother and wife.  I'll spend more time doing things that matter.

Another reason that is harder for me to talk about has to do with my insecurities.  Now we all have them, but for some reason being on facebook has made me more insecure.  It might surprise some of you, but I've never had much confidence in myself and it's easy for me to get down on myself from just the tiniest little thing.  At times I'm overly sensitive.  I know cancelling facebook isn't going to cure me, but I think it will help.  I won't wonder why so and so didn't invite me over to hang out, or why don't more people comment on my beautiful children, etc... If I'm not on FB, I won't see the other's posts and pictures.  Now I admit these are silly things to worry about and it drives me crazy that I even care, but I do and I can't help that.  I know deep down my friends and family do love me, but to me FB is high school drama and cliques all over again.  And my high school was not drama filled or cliquey so I don't really know how to deal with that scenario.

Also, its sooo easy to hurt peoples feeling or get your feelings hurt on fb.  I've been on both sides of it and I hate it!  Life is difficult as it is and I don't feel like adding to its challenges.

I'm not going to lie, its going to be difficult because I'll feel like I'm missing out.  I'm sure I'll miss memos on whose pregnant, who just had their baby, play dates, and birthday parties, etc... but I managed just fine before facebook, I think I can do it again.

I'll definitely miss seeing pictures of my friends and family, especially those who live far away.  And I'll miss the ease of keeping in touch, but at this point I feel as though the negatives outweigh the positives.

So good bye Facebook, it's been a wild ride ;)