Tuesday, January 4, 2011
A New Job.
I've been meaning to start a blog for some time now, and today I finally have the time! Why am I doing this? I have no idea! It's not like I have profound words of wisdom to share, and I speak with my friends and family almost daily. I guess I just need an outlet for my random thoughts that hit my through out the day. Plus it will give me something to do, especially on cold, snowy days, while the kids are sleeping. Since I quit my job about three months ago, I've come to realize that being at home with my two kids (Samantha who is 3, and William who is 5 months old) is not all that I thought it would be. I thought it would be days filled with games, toys, movies, playdates etc... and it is, but it's not as full-filling as I thought. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being at home with my kids. Nothing makes me happier than having the chance to raise my kids and seeing every moment of their life right now. I won't miss anything, and I love that! I definitely don't regret my decision to quit my job, but I feel like I'm missing something. Maybe, I'm not used to this kind of work. I'm used to a 8-5, hour lunches, 15 minute breaks, and having the chance to get out of the house and have my own thing going on. Now, my day revolves around two little munchkins, and I don't have my own time. It sounds selfish, I know. I feel bad even thinking this. I know this job is ten times more important than any 8 to 5 kind of job. I just hope I am cut out for it. I have to admit, there have been times I have called my husband at work and cried to him over the phone, usually freaking out because Samantha is being naughty or William won't stop crying. Hopefully I'm never on speaker phone or his office would start talking about, Steve's crazy wife. I just keep telling myself, it will get easier. I will get used to this new job. I'm just going to take it one day at a time (reason for title of blog.) I believe in many ways this blog will do me good. It will give me the, "my time" I so crave. And who knows, maybe I will say something profound that will change the life of someone who is reading this, not likely, but you never know.
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Ellen- You're tackling the hardest job there is. You're right--your time is no longer your own, and following a schedule is next to impossible. But it's also the most rewarding job there is. No one loves your kids like you do, and you will never regret taking time off from your "career" to devote to Will & Samantha. Make time to spend with other moms so that your kids learn to socialize with other kids and you get to socialize with other grownups!! The next few years will fly by--believe me!! There were days when I thought I'd be changing your diapers and cleaning your messes FOREVER--and I'd give just about anything to have some (not all) of those days back.
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ReplyDeleteI hope you are adjusting well to your "new job"! I know how you felt, it took me 6 months to adjust to staying home with Titus but now I love it and would not change it for anything. I love getting to see him grow and all the different stages they grow through and how precious it is. I would hate for someone else to enjoy all those moments before me. Anyway, I have enjoyed your blog and will be one of your "followers" for sure!