Today it really struck me how fast Samantha is growing up. Before I know It I will be packing her lunches and dropping her off at school. Watching her grow up is such a joy and I love seeing her reactions to new things, but why does it have to go so fast!? If I could go back in time, knowing how fast three years goes by, I think I would have chosen to be a stay at home mom a lot sooner. It feels like yesterday that we first brought Samantha home not really knowing what to do with this 6 pound baby girl. Now I am trying to figure out what to do with a little girl who is no longer a baby. But of course we can't go back it time so I have to learn from the past. For the next couple of years, before she goes to preschool, I am going to cherish every moment with her. I want to build puzzles with her, have tea parties, paint, play Barbies, build forts, all the wonderful childhood things. I truly believe these years are the most important years. In these years I can mold and shape Samantha into a child with character, kindness, and love. I also think it's the best time to start developing a relationship with Samantha, so that when she is older she knows she can come to me about anything and that I will listen with love and respect. Not only do I want to trust her, I want her to trust me (and Steve too.) How am I going to accomplish this? I have no idea! But I know I need to start now. One thing I have been trying to do now, is to take interest in what ever she is doing or saying. If she wants me to color with her, than I will drop whatever I am doing and color with her. If she is telling me a story, even if it doesn't make sense, I will actively listen. Maybe by doing this she will learn that I value her and in turn hopefully she will value herself.
Okay enough looking into the future. Thinking about Samantha as a teenager is starting to stress me out and I really don't feel like breaking out and looking like I just hit puberty. On a lighter note, I am sick of this winter weather wonderland. In my perfect world, winter would end the day after Christmas, and we would now be enjoying an afternoon basking in the sun. I cannot wait until spring! I am so ready for longer days, warmer weather, flowers, green grass, etc. I've already started shopping (online window shopping) for swing sets for Samantha and William. Oh, and I about died from excitement when I went to Target and saw kites and tee ball sets in the same aisle that used to have sleds! Just a side note, I am always giddy in Target. Something about that store makes me feel all warm and fuzzy and then I have this urge to spend money we don't have. I could go on and on about the wonders of Target, but I think that might have to wait for another day. Basically I am just excited for Spring and Summer too, but lets not talk about summer, because it just reminds me that I need to start working out so I can actually find a cute swimsuit that I look decent in. Now there is a topic to blog about!
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